“Father”

Father Collage

(SSATB group or choir)

Since the premiere of “Father” in 2014 I have chosen to not disclose the meaning of the piece. I instead provide the text below and invite you to think of your own interpretation.

History

The piece was finished in December of 2013 and was premiered by Ping (www.facebook.com/pingvoices/), a Carnegie Mellon born voice quintet (Soprano, Soprano, Alto, Tenor, Bass) on May 9th, 2014. The that premiered “Father” was broadcast on WQED, Pittsburgh’s classical music station, and was described as a haunting “mini-opera.” The group proceeded to record an album which contained the piece. The album can be seen here: https://pingvoices.bandcamp.com/album/ping

Text

I stood once
Among all of you
But now I’m gone
And I am all through

Through and through
I’m thrown on the ground
And here I stand
Beneath all your sound

"Father"
Where have you been?
I live and die in your world of sin

Who am I?
But just a lost soul
Who’s left to pay
Your infamous toll.

Why am I
Subject to this?

You cannot tell me that you’re innocent

I just want a chance
Just want a moment
I just want was reason
To be merry and free

And imprison me while
You slowly kill me

Have you no conscience?
I don’t know
I don’t know

Well have you no foresight?
I don’t know
I don’t know

Well have you no heart?
I don’t know
I don’t know

This was my great fear
Can you not see that?
I live in the dread
Of what I have done

Oh father!
You shower me with
Your forgiveness
I don’t know
How you
Could forget what I did to you

Child you sick and devious thing
You haunt me now and all while I sing

I cannot
No, I will not
Let you do
All that you want
To do for me
No, I’ll set you free

Child you sick and devious thing
You haunt me now and all while I sing

This is all my fault
You are not to blame
I back now to
My life of shame
Why
Did I succumb to this mortal sin?

Please oh please
Will you forgive me?
This is not what I
Expected to be
Please oh please
Will you let me be?
I’m sick of thinking
Of what you could be

"Father"
Where have you been?
I live and die
In your world of sin

Who am I
But just a lost soul
Who’s left to pay
Your infamous toll

Listen to me!

I cannot
I can’t
I cannot

"Father"!
I have no thoughts
I have no words
To what you are
Or what you were
Who could you be?
Who could I be?

This is the end
There is one end
I am the end
I’m with you now
I am hellbound

I am "Father"!

I stood once
Among all of you
But now I’m gone
And I am all through

Through and through
I’m thrown on the ground
And here I stand
Beneath all you now.

"Father"
Where have you been?
I live and die in your world of sin

Who am I?
But just a lost soul
Who’s left to pay
Your infamous toll.

 

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